Diary of a Divorcee

May 17

“Marry your best friend. I do not say that lightly. Really, truly find the strongest, happiest friendship in the person you fall in love with. Someone who speaks highly of you. Someone you can laugh with. The kind of laughs that make your belly ache, and your nose snort. The embarrassing, earnest, healing kind of laughs. Wit is important. Life is too short not to love someone who lets you be a fool with them. Make sure they are somebody who lets you cry, too. Despair will come. Find someone that you want to be there with you through those times. Most importantly, marry the one that makes passion, love, and madness combine and course through you. A love that will never dilute - even when the waters get deep, and dark.” — N’tima (via inaudiblewords)

(Source: mariaarroyo, via runningforourbaby)

May 13

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” —

(Bob Marley)

I read this during my friends’ beach-front wedding ceremony, and the only comment I can offer is, “Well done, Bob Marley. Well said.”

(via doseofapathy)

How does the day go by so quickly?

Later I will clean out my car and take the dogs for a walk… that’s all.

Mental Health Day

I’ve been a little on edge lately… It’s a combination of things— I’m not really happy where I work, the impending school program starting, the wedding, not having my house clean, my dress not being here yet, repeat offender family members being rude, the list goes on.


So, I decided to call in sick today. I needed it. (Bad thing: my boss, nor coworker ever acknowledged my texts this morning)

Today I have already:

I still have plenty more to do. But, I’m taking a break… It feels so good to get this kind of stuff done. Cleansing almost. I would like to go one step further and clean out my closet again… That’s just taking it overboard, though. I’m just going to take it easy and relax. Life can wait for me for once.

May 09

Is it Friday yet???

May 08

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  1. Hooray for dental insurance! I can have as many teeth bonded as I want for only $50 copay!
  2. Floral quotes are outrageous.
  3. I finally told my uncle, my godfather, one of the men who has raised me, that his teasing is over the top. It upsets me. I can’t stand it.
  4. Also: I’m officially over my feud with the family “business partner”. He can stay mad at me for as long as he’d like— nothing changes the fact that he’s a depressed drunk with a chip on his shoulder.
  5. Numbers three and four of this list are uplifting, aren’t they?
  6. I’m so glad that it’s Thursday tomorrow. I almost typed Friday. Wishful thinking?
  7. I had a dental appointment today, obviously. My mouth is sore now!
  8. The floor still needs to be vacuumed and the laundry still needs to be hung up. I OFFICIALLY DON”T CARE.
  9. Gosh, I’m boring.
  10. I’m starting to worry— my dress should be here any day.
  11. I can’t wait to start school, possibly get a new job, and start fresh. My office walls are like prison these days.
  12. I’m off to read a book…

Night ya’ll.

May 06

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May 05

I’m still here…

Apr 28

(via runningforourbaby)

Apr 24

Pro/Con:

You know, sometimes I just have to say screw it— who cares what everyone thinks about me? I’m trying my best, and that’s all that matters. So what, my uncle is hard on me. I’m not going to let him bother me, or at least I will try— because he really can get to me sometimes.

I’m so thankful for the love of my life, the Bear. He’s amazing, and so is our little family. I’m not going to worry about anything else but being me.

Apr 10

So busy…

Apr 07

I hate that the Bear works swing shift. I never get to see him during the week— except for when I sleep, and that doesn’t count, even though I do sleep basically on top of him.

He and I have just been so happy lately.

It’s awesome.

I don’t know what I did to deserve to be this happy.

Really…

I’m one lucky girl.

Apr 06

Still to clean

Mop the kitchen floor
Organize and dust my bedroom
Straighten up our bedroom
The bathroom!
Bird cage area
Vacuum

BRB,
Napping.

Weekends, why do you have to be so hard?

Apr 05

Friday is crazy over here…

So, I went to work and did the job of three people— being only paid for one is the sucky part!


After work I met my mom at her house and went to Costco. They only had two things I needed— but I ended up getting a set of solar lights for the yard and two bath sheets, so I considered it a success. While my parents went for a walk, I applied for two teaching jobs. Both are in different towns than I live— but, oh well. I hope I can get hired on somewhere. I’m not making the kind of money I deserve right now.


Next we had a sushi dinner, which was great.

When we got back to their house I “fur-minated” the dog, borrowed the “furminator” and loaded up all of my stuff into the car, including Diego who had been staying at their house for the past few days. D needs to go over there at least once a month! He doesn’t get enough exercise here; at least at their house he runs around.

I’ve been having a wild evening tonight, if you can’t tell. I’m going to cap it off with some “pre-cleaning” as I call it. All that means is that I organize the clutter around the house and get the basics done. Tomorrow I’m going to get a deep clean on. The Bear invited a bunch of his family over to see the house for the first time. We’ve lived here six months already! You know me, I can’t have ANYONE over unless the house is perfectly clean.

Tomorrow my plan is to:

Gosh, doesn’t it sound crazy?!

Apr 01

Mondays are icky