Diary of a Divorcee

So, I’m pretty sure I ovulated about six days ago. 

According to numerous websites I’ve trolled around (not including the picture), implantation begins on or around 6dpo. This evening when I went to check my CM, as I customarily do, I found two drops of blood! 

This would be wayyyyyyyyyyyy too early for premenstrual spotting! 

I wonder what it could mean… 

Implantation bleeding? 

I’m terribly optimistic! 

As my husband delightfully yelled just a few minutes ago, “POSITIVE SELF TALK, KIKI!!!!” 

Oh please, oh please, OH PLEASE! Mean something! 

One of my favorite days of the whole entire year is here! There’s nothing better than getting to see little children dressed up as princesses, ghouls and goblins, asking for candy and walking down the street holding their mothers’ hands. I especially love the babies bundled up in strollers! 

What makes it even better is that tonight is going to be filled with all of my favorite shows, all of them spooky for Halloween! Yes, I enjoy the Simpsons, Family Guy, even Cleveland! I’m such a dork! 

This morning has been painfully sweet. I’m still tucked cozily in bed, with my little dog snuggling next to me and listening to the sea lions barking not too far away. Along with smelling the salt air, listening to the sea lions is one of my favorite reasons for living near the ocean. 

I’m still a little tired from our big afternoon yesterday. We had an impromptu get together at our house. What was supposed to be dinner with 3 friends ended up to be dinner, drinks, It’s the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown, and a movie with 9 friends! The more the merrier here at the H_______ household! I don’t mind having to clean up today, it was so much fun! 

Even better, my loving husband is taking me out for breakfast this morning! 

I hope everyone is having a wonderful and ghoulish Halloween! 

And hello to my new followers! If you’d like, tell me a little about yourself in my ask box! I’d love to meet you! 

Everyone around us is talking about babies. 

There’s some friends of ours in particular that have been talking about it for months. 

Let me set the scene: They’ve been married for five years. Were separated for two. They got back together and have struggling ever since. She struggles with major depression. Their debt is piling up. She’s jobless motivationless. He’s apathetic, at best. Don’t get me wrong. I like these people, were great friends. I’m just telling it like it is… 

The past three months she’s been begging him to let her stop taking her birth control. She wants a baby more than anything in the entire world. He didn’t think it was a very good idea. 

Since learning that we’re actively trying for a baby, he’s warmed up to the idea. He mentions it every time we hang out, “Are you pregnant yet?” Nope. She gives him death stares and pouts. 

Well, last night he decided that they could start trying. Maybe it was the rum, but he can’t take it back now. 

The girl said it herself, “Well, the race is on!”

Apparently getting pregnant is a race to the finish line. 

Not. 

It’s going to happen for me eventually. If not this month, then maybe the next. I’m not racing anyone to the finish line. Babies are not prizes. 

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I really don’t understand why I bit my nails last night…. 

It’s horrible! 

Why couldn’t I have just picked the polish off?

Oh well, I better just get over it… they aren’t going to magically reappear! 

Last night I bit my nails!!!! 

Why?

WHY!?!?!!?

I made it one month and 14 days without biting my nails…. and last night, I got the urge. 

UGH!!!! 

I’m SO MAD AT MYSELF!!!! 

My husband just woke up out of a dead sleep. He poked his head around the corner, pointed at me and said deliriously, 

“I wanna have your baby.”

Cue giggle fit. He used the restroom.

“Why you laugh? You don’t want me to have your baby?” 

Then he went back to bed. 

Yes, that’s me! I beat Dr. Mario level 24!!!!!!!!!! 

The countdown is on! 

Only a few hours left until it’s time to get ready and go to our friends’ houses for the Halloween party. 

Of course, I’m the makeup artist in residence here. First of all, I have the most makeup. Why hardly any of the women on base don’t wear makeup is beyond me… So, I’m doing the makeup for a goddess, Medusa and an 80’s chick. Hah! Break out the eyeliner and the blush! 

I can’t wait! Since I’m an “old lady” I’m going to take nap before it’s time to get ready!