1. Deer embroidery
2. Bewitched embroidery
3. I Dream of Jeannie embroidery
4. “Only two things smell like…” (fish) embroidery
5. Golden Girls embroidery
Up Next:
1. Catsanity
2. Chihuahua portrait
3. “I caught it!” (skunk)
4. Embroidered shoes?
5. Aunt Bee (portrait)
1. Upload the pictures from my camera to my computer, then edit
2. Go to the DMV
3. Vacuum
4. Make my bed? Why if I’m just going to sleep in it again.
5. Remove the half-chewed pig ear from the bed prior to going to sleep
6. Email my future mother in law
7. Take out the trash (all the way to the dumpster, not just outside my door)
8. Dishes, ick
9. Buy stamps
10. Clean out my car, ick ick
11. Buy toiletries
12. Give some things back (one pair of pajamas, a shirt, a spoon)
13. Sand, then paint shelf (yellow? blue?)
14. Hang picture
15. Wash/dry/stretch embroidered work, frame, give away, hang
1. Talk to myself
2. Cook
3. Sleep in the middle of the bed
4. Do “drive-by”s
5. Walk the dog
6. Sew sew sew sew sew sew sew sew sew
7. Tease
8. Plan
9. Wait
1. Gotten ready. I was unprepared to stay at my mom and dad’s house for the weekend. I forgot to bring my brushes and my blow drier. Usually she leaves them here, but she went to the beach this weekend instead of the cabin. She needs her brushes and blow drier there.
2. Talked to anybody in person. And the only people I have talked to on the phone are G, my grandma and my aunt. There isn’t much to say because there isn’t much going on.
3. Cleaned. I should at least have my own mess tidied up. But I feel like a teenager staying here… I’m going to clean and such tomorrow, before my parents come home.
4. Called a friend back to apologize for flaking on her. I meant to get around to seeing her today, I really did. I feel terrible that she’s waited around for my call. I’ll call her tonight after I finally drive the seven miles to get my blow drier from my apartment. I wish I could just borrow one from the neighbors, but I’m too embarrassed.
5. Turned off the tv. Lifetime really sucks a girl in, yeah?
6. Felt bad for any of it. Really, I feel great. I’m at my peaked state of relaxation. Save for the two gigantic pimples on my chin. These pimples always come back. They are the deep, underground kind that swell up and never pop. Yuck.
7. Drank enough water. I love the water here. It’s home.
Today I don’t feel like getting out of bed. It is a beautiful day outside, not too hot for once, and I don’t feel like getting out of bed. It is hard to leave when there is a furry little creature fast asleep and glued to your side. Diego is my living teddy bear.
I do have things I need to get done today. The flowers must be watered. All of the animals must be fed. All in all, Jimmy, Norm, Smoky Joe, Ling-Ling, Benson, Abba, Farrah, Eddie and Annie must be tended to. All cats. I don’t mind cats. Some people hate them. Not me, I don’t mind them at all. Some are fun to snuggle. Mostly, I’m a dog person. Little dogs, please.
I was going to go to the grocery store today. But yesterday afternoon I bought enough provisions to last me the next couple of days. Maybe even a week. There’s no use in buying too much. It just goes bad. That’s a waste.
Remember:
11:40a, 1:40p, 3:40p, 6:40p, and either 8:40p or 9:40p
1. Gimme five bucks, I need to have at least three more drinks.
2. I’ve got to get as many beers in as I can, I have to go harvest in a few hours.
3. Bar-bie skanks like bar-b-que, ironic?
4. Those girls had big boobs. Those were not girls, they were your ex-girlfriend’s moms.
5. I’ve got to get some corn, my dogs in the car waiting for a snack.
*The Farmer’s Market here has excellent people-watching, especially in the beer gardens. I’m glad my diet calls for zero alcohol, the entertainment is phenomenal. If only I had someone to watch with who I didn’t have to censor what I say. You know, I can be a little too snarky sometimes. Or is that even possible? I wish you were here.
1. Talk in code
2. Lay in bed alllll day long
3. Sleep at night
4. Smoke cigarettes (they are bad, you know)
5. Eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat
6. Not eat eat eat eat eat eat eat
7. Make up my mind about something
8. Change my mind about something
9. Blowdry my hair (results=magical, time=wasted)
10. Ride my bike at dusk (SKUNKS!!!!)
11. Laundry (but oh the smell of freshly washed!)
12. See people I haven’t seen in a really long time
13. Talk about my “feelings” (whatever that means)
14. Fix other people’s problems (do it your own damn self)
15. Show people my “visual art work” (i make it in secret)
16. Tell secrets (especially after being told not to tell)
17. Doing things anyway
18. Making up words
19. Think about the past
(Always never is the relentless drive my mind has, and so what? I can think.)
1. Her first gay couple holding hands
2. A stolen piece of jewelry from a street vendor, with street justice performed by a 5’ tall old lady (included punching woman in arm and scolding in unrecognizable language)
3. First ever in-store “makeover” performed by ‘J’ a male-to-female, absolutely gorgeous, with extremely deep voice
4. First ever BART rides
5. Cabbage soup, oh cabbage soup
6. Three stories of Forever 21
7. 17 pictures, 11 including hats we didn’t purchase
8. 101 I love yous and You’re the bests
9. One hell of a good time
1. Embriodered linen squares with doodle-like pieces of animals on them. May hang them in painted wooden rings or piece together into a random quilt.
(finished one: “dear” deer under a japanese cherry tree, estimated 500+ French knots)
2. Embroidered portrait of the Golden Girls, almost done.
(finished with Rose, Sophia, and Blanche, almost done with Dorothy, need to set/draw text “Thank you for being a friend” 10 x 10 inches)
3. A pilgrimage to the City tomorrow with a 13 year old…. I hope wonderment wears off on others.
4. Upcoming embroidered projects- pixie on snail, buck head, skully girl in dia de los muertos colors, some anthropomorphic veggies)
Gosh, doesn’t this summer sound great?
1. Laundry dries in three pushes of an hour-long button
2. The mail, oh the mail
3. Decisions, one of which I made today (excellent)
4. Getting anywhere, especially home
5. Cooling down, the heat is almost instantaneous though
6. Waiting for him, naturally
7. Growing up
8. Nights
9. The everlasting weekend, not to be confused with the Gobstopper
1. Lots and lots and lots and lots of books
2. A college degree
3. Lots and lots and lots of food, well… look at me
4. A town on an island with a name that will always mean love, at least to me
5. Journals, though not in quite some time
6. Just a few movies, I don’t care to watch
7. Crying, I’ve run out of tears a thousand times over
8. I think I have enough saved up to cry soon, I haven’t in a while
9. Faiths
10. Habits
11. Days that are like markers, headstones for periods of my life
12. Today, for example
13. People
14. What I mean to say, is that I’ve either lost them or let them go
15. Thinking about certain things
1. A 49 page manuscript of my work.
2. An apartment in a barn, 90 degrees F
3. Compassion
4. A tiny dog with a bad attitude
5. Zero hubcaps
6. Itchy legs
7. A song stuck in my head that reminds me of him.
8. The rest of the summer to be free
9. A sunburn
10. An amazing family
11. Drive
12. A broken bureau
13. The ugliest bathing suit in the whole world
14. One unwatched movie
15. Lots of craft projects to do
16. A friend I miss, and he knows who he is
17. A little anxiety, it’s normal
18. Another friend that I miss, but whatever
19. No food in my refrigerator
1. My neck
2. A full stomach
3. A bug under my foot
4. Squeezing my eyelids really tight
5. A wet towel
6. Pillows
7. Chances
1. I don’t stand in front of the mirror enough anymore.
2. I’m afraid I won’t fit into my wedding dress anymore.
3. It’s too quiet here.
4. I don’t have one person who I tell EVERYTHING to.
5. I hide things. Objects and emotions. Right now I’ve got money stashed. The hiding place isn’t very good. And I’m not going to mention how I feel.
1. Being alone, not to be confused with spending time by myself, more along the lines of prolonged “loneliness”.
2. Having dirty laundry, not to be confused with “problems,” the physical piles of clothes, towels, sheets, etc.
3. The act of waiting around for clothes to wash.
4. The fact that I still can’t find a god home for my little orange kitten.
5. Not being able to plan our wedding.
6. Not being able to properly cook or prepare meals in my apartment.
7. Mirrors.
8. Not having a couch.
9. Missing teeth, of course on other people. I have all mine.
10. Animals that are in pain.
11. Waking up in the middle of the night with a dog bone in my side.
12. People who repeatedly put themselves in compromised positions.
13. Conflicting feelings.
The “Ooh Aah Festival”:
Twenty minutes of fireworks in a park for the past twenty years of my life. Feels like it gets shorter every year. I don’t want to grow up. I want time to stay slow, like when we were kids. It would have been better, if G was by my side instead of serving overseas. When I’m with him watching fireworks my heartbeat feels like the sound of the BANG when they ignite.
BANG
BANG
BANG
And then it is over.
I’m done.
