Diary of a Divorcee

1. what did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?

i moved to LA

2. did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i make them and forget them quarterly, not yearly

3. did anyone close to you give birth?
sister-in-law (Everest has red hair!) and a couple others

4. did anyone close to you die?
yes, an uncle, i wrote his eulogy

5. what countries did you visit?
none, i did go to hawaii though

6. what would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
a job

7. what date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 6, 2009, married

8. what was your biggest achievement of the year?
graduating college

9. what was your biggest failure?
who cares

10. did you suffer illness or injury?
is fat an illness?

11. what was the best thing you bought?
bedroom set

12. whose behavior merited celebration?
ours

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my brother

14. Where did most of your money go?
home sweet home

15. what did you get really, really, really excited about?
our wedding, then it didn’t happen

16. what song will always remind you of 2009?
Jolene

17. compared to this time last year, are you:
more grownup 

18. happier?
yep

19. thinner or fatter?
see above, yuck

20. richer or poorer?
richer

21. what do you wish you’d done more of?
write

22. what do you wish you’d done less of?
internet

23. how did you spend christmas?
I spent christmas in my hometown with my loved ones, and lost a job

24. did you fall in love in 2009?
i fall in love every week

25. how many one-night stands?
none!

26. what was your favorite tv program?
Golden Girls

27. do you dislike anyone now that you didn’t dislike this time last year?
none

28. what was the best book you read?
too many to decide

29. what was your greatest musical discovery?
the jazz station here

30. what did you want and get?
a beautiful home

31. what did you want and not get?
a job

32 what was your favorite film of this year?

none

33. what did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
my friends and i went out, i turned 24

34. what one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
a good job that i enjoy

35. how would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
western mom

36. what kept you sane?
my dog

37. which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
steve colbert

38. what political issue stirred you the most?
gay marriage not being passed

39. who did you miss?
I miss my family

40. who was the best new person you met?
i don’t know

41. tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009?
you can’t always get what you want, but you can try sometimes

42. quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
“i’m leaving on a jet plane, don’t know if i’ll be back again”

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like anybody can take a picture of an empty bed, cats doing cat things, their own feet and open windows. Okay people, it’s been done. Try something new. I guess the novelty of taking these types of photos is that there is a degree of originality that you don’t have to confront.

Personally, I think taking my own versions of these photos would be the most boring thing on the face of this earth. It could be somewhat interesting if I was doing it to document the phenomenon of these photos popularity and how it sort-of-kind-of forces the photographer to confront the banality of their own existence. But, seriously, I don’t even have a cat and our bed is way too nice to evoke that lonely feeling most of the pictures suggest.

Hah.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately. About a lot of things.

For one, I always start thinking at this time of year. Another year has come and gone and when it gets to the end I always think “Wow, I’ve wasted another one.” This year wasn’t like that so much in particular. Instead, it has come down to “Well, I’m a little less confused and a little more lost”. This year has been a thing of new beginnings. Moving. Completing something big (college graduate, anybody?). And all that’s on my mind is…

NOW WHAT?

For real.

I have to make a major decision…. and I should do it quickly. We all know that I’ve never made a decision quickly in all my life. So, I better just keep racking my brain and the answer will make itself clear to me soon enough. Soon enough.

Until then I’m going to make some Resolutions Goals for myself in 2010:

1. Find a job that I like

2. Lose major weight (30 pounds) and get in great shape

3. Have a wedding

4. Read at least 14 enriching books

5. Finish putting together our house

6. Stay in good contact with my family

7. Keep a correspondence book with my hubby

There are plenty of others, I won’t bore you with them….

I’ve started thinking a lot about writing a book about being a military wife. I don’t know if I want to attempt something true-to-life or more of a fictional account. Hmm…

So… I wonder what’s next for me.

don’t let me look in

the mirror cuts me deep deep

down go down go down